OnE day tO Go!!!

SANDY MAH!!!
Do you know that still left one day to go?
Umm...Sure i know! But,what can i do leh?? Right??
Just face it with a happy smile... :)

Hope that 3 months will flies very fast la!!
Try-ing to comfort myself...lol...=="
Can't update my blog le...Coz din't bring laptop go... :(
Haiz..........
Can't express my feelings in words...
No mood to continue my blog...
Next time gonna update my pics...^^

Starts to EmO~

Yesterday can't slept well because my mind keep on thinking when i'm going to genting...

Honestly,this is my second time to leave my lovely family since two years ago where i need to went for national service at selama, perak!

And this time i leave my house is go to genting to get my experience in work...

Erm...half happy and half sad because i scare i will cry again... I tried to control myself but at last i was failed last time...Haiz...In the other hand, i feel happy is because i'm really a big girl and can go out to earn money already...

Suddenly feel myself don't want to leave my home yet...

But,i can't..............

Although,i know that one day i will leave my home to further my studies or work at somewhere else,but i really don't want so fast to leave my family and home!!!

Maybe at first i shouldn't find job at genting and just stay back at kampar find job??

Feels like i haven't had enough time at home...

Feels like i haven't sleep enough on my bed...

Feels like i still have many tvb dramas to watch...

Feels like i don't want to leave my laptop...
Feels like i haven't enjoy my holidays at all!!

THERE'S SO MUCH THINGS THAT I WANNA DO AND I DON'T WANT SO FAST GO GENTING!!! *cry-ing*

Anyway,i should have positive thinking where this time i go to genting is time to become more mature and more independent without my mother's help...

I can't imagine myself without my laptop and can't on9 for whole day...

Sucks!!!

Hope January i can back and on9 till i'm crazy...Hahaha...

If not i'm gonna crazy soon...Coz addicted to facebook... :P

Why time passes so fast and now just left four days before going up hill...

And i believe that "When there's a beginning,there should be an ending"...

I should be glad that till 19 years old i'm gonna leave my home for second time...

Thanks GOD...

I know that when we gained something,we will lost something...That's how our life be...

I should stay happily and calm no matter what happens because i know that my parents will give me silent support behind me...So,i cannot give up so easily... :)

Gambateh and just do your best in your work...^^

See you all soon...

Sobs~~

Christmas Eve~

Christmas tree frOm DeaR~~~

Today was Christmas eve and i just stayed at home for a whole day...

Can imagined how my whole day gonna spent,just stayed at home???

Duhh...One word to described it,is BORED!!!

But,its normal for me coz every year i also din't really celebrate on it...

Just received some messages from friends and i really appreciate it~~

Thanks ya...

This year Christmas eve quite different from past years because i really miss someone that far apart from me...Haiz...

Can't stop thinking of him even 1 second la!! Shitt!!! Sei for lo!!

My mind is full of him and can't keep other people already... :P

Hymphh...I thought can celebrate christmas with you this year...

But,make me disappointed...Haih...

You sure celebrate with your friends happily,right??

Sure forget me already...Sobs...T.T

But,can celebrate New Year with someone...Hahaha...

Its okie can't celebrated christmas with you...Hehe... :)

My christmas wishes are hope all of us healthy and stay happily forever and ever!!

Although just a simple sentence,but its full of meaning and everyone wishes too...

Thats all for tonight...Have a sweet dreams... =)

GathErinG with frEns~~

菊姐again called us yumcha at Won Cafe...so.i walked with fong chee yong and for sure we chatted bout what we bring to genting and so on...

We asked each other whether still got who yumcha with us...And our answer were don't know...Sobs... ==

Reached there bout 12.20pm and we ordered drinks first while waiting them...

Waited bout 20 0r 25 minutes and they reached...

Quite shock because many people were came...There were 11 of us include me,chee yong,wai kit, jay,stella,anthony,菊姐,ng wai hung,wong weng li,wong yun yee,and also new chee yang...

While yumcha,we also helped ng wai hung celebrated his birthday...^^

Sang birthday song and we took few pictures...Talked bout genting and others too...

Quite enjoyed that day and gathered with them for the last day before they going up hill tomorrow...One word to described this gathering.......HAPPIEEE!!!

Hehe...^^

P/S : pics gonna upload next time...

IpOh IpOh~~

strawberry strudel~~

this were the things that attracts us~~

three cute girls taking pics...^^

Today,was a happy day for me because went to Ipoh with my bestie...

My bestie?? Sure is Hor Yan and Pick Yin la...Hehe...^^

We took bus at 10 something and reached Ipoh almost 11 something...I think...Forgot to looked at the watch... ==

Our first station was Parade!!

Shopped for 2 hours++ and we just bought a few things...

But yet we really enjoyed it...

Cause three of us really long time din't go Ipoh shopping...

Our next station was Jusco!!

Have a looked at all shops and we found that S&J have something that attracts us...

Hehe...Later show you all the pics... :P

It really damn cutes and i cant control myself to buy it!!

Quite nice when i wore it and i didn't regret for bought it...

Pickyin and Horyan also bought it too but not same with mine...

Its really really cool when we wore it coz everyone is looking at us and at that moments we seems like a superstar...

Wow...we really dare to do it la and in the future we won't do such things anymore...So,now as a teenager,we should have a try on this...

Next our station was Strawberry Moments!!

What a nice place at Ipoh... I really love that place...^^

Have our great time at there and of coz we didn't miss our chance to take pics!!

Yea...We love to take pics especially at a nice place...

That's all for today's...I really looking forward for our next hangs out day...

Hey girls!! I really love you!!

Muacks!!♥♥

BFF~~

My phone back already!!

Hey!! My phone at last back from the factory... ==

Bout 11.25am,my phone rang and i saw that lengzai called me...

Fuiyoh!! Good news is approaching...^^

Then,i woke up immediately and answered phone with a serious voice because when i sleeping that time,i'll talked nonsense that even myself don't know what i'm talking at all...

From today onwards,i'm gonna take good care of my phone before i change a new phone...

Hahaha...XD

And i chatted with his mother while he's not around...His mother asked me when i'm going to work and all those things...

I'm damn happy when my phone come back!!!

Love you~❤

Exam finished! Holiday starts!

Woohoo~~~

At last my exam finished at 9.45 am!!

When the teacher said time's up and the paper is going to collect now!! I saw many people have a big smile on their faces and of course 3 of us (me, pick yin and abbie) started to show a V action to each others...Hahaha...

Its normal we smiled because we really free and have a long holiday before entering uni...

At last i'm free lu~~~

Can't express my feelings throughout the words la...

But,for those who had the similar experience with me, i'm sure you can feel what i'm feel now...

Although now i'm free,but, i need to make all the books,notes,papers or whatever to disappear from my sight...

Phew~~~

When think of all those books,i really wanna faint la... @.@

I don't know how am i going to pack the books alone and from where i should pack the books...

Arghhh!!!

Can i don't pack all the books first??

Or wait i'm back from Genting first la...

Hehe...Very lazy la now...

Stop at here first...Later continue~~~

恶梦...

一大早就梦见你啊...真是的...

搞到我立刻起床... ==

真的很讨厌你的咯...

做么还要出现在我的梦啊?

难道我还再想你咩??

一定不是的!!

因为我都没为了你而伤心难过啊...

也一秒都没想过你...

算啦.........

反正都是发梦而已...

又不是真的!

不要自己吓自己啦...

哈哈哈...

希望明天不会再见到你在我的梦咯!!

要不然我一定骂死你!

My Kind Of Guy...♥

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?

:: Erm...yea...

2. Smart?

:: Of course...

3. Preferred age?

:: Older than me not more than 10 years,same age also can geh...But NO little brother!!

4. Preferred height?

:: sure taller than me...

5. How about sense of humour?

:: Not really...but dun too nerdy...

6. How about piercings?

:: No...

7. Accepts you for who you are?

:: Sure!! If not?

8. Pink hair?

:: Definitely no!!

9. Mushy or not?

:: No...

10. Thin or fat?

:: Not so thin,not so fat...

11. Black, brown, yellow or white (skin colour)?

:: Brown...(if same with me is better)

12. Long hair or short hair?

:: Of course short hair!

13. Plastic or metal?

:: Huh??

14. Smells good?

:: Ok la...

15. Smoker?

:: Anti-smoker!!

16. Drinker?

:: Depends on situation...

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?

:: No need...

18. Muscular?

:: Its ok...

19. Plays piano?

:: No need...

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

:: No need...

21. Plays violin?

:: No need...

22. Sings very well?

:: Its ok...But at least willing accompany me to sing KTV...

23. Vain?

:: No...

24. With glasses?

:: Yea...course i wearing glasses too...

25. With braces?

:: No! Hate it!

26. Shy type?

:: Sure no...

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?

:: Erm...80% good and 20% rebel...

28. Active or passive?

:: Active!!

29. Tight or bomb?

:: ???

30. Singer or dancer?

:: If can! Hahaha...

31. Stunner?

:: Not really...

32. Hip-hop?

:: No need...

33. Earrings?

:: Ok...But not more than 2...

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-boy/girlfriends-until-you-drop?

:: No...

35. Dimples?

:: Yea...

36. Bookworm?

:: Ok la...but not 100% bookworm...

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?

:: Yea...but not too much...

38. Playful?

:: No!

39. Flirt?

:: Of course towards me and not other girls!

40. Poem writer?

:: Not really...

41. Serious?

:: With me of course!!

42. Campus crush?

:: Yea...Why not???

43. Painter?

:: No need...

44. Religious?

:: Yea...

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

:: Not really...

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

:: No...sure will ignore me...

47. Speaks 20 languages?

:: Erm...its too much...several languages is enough...

48. Loyal or faithful?

:: Both also!

49. Good kisser?

:: Sure...♥

50. Loves children?

:: Of course!

Me!!!(ParT X)

又过一天了~~~

时间过得真快啊...

今天的我都是跟平常一样...

看了一下书,做了几题数学...

就觉得很累...

所以就不做了...

哈哈哈...

(整天都给自己一个理由偷懒...)

所以现在要开工了...

再不做,明天我就要等死咯...

晚安...^^

Me!!!(ParT VIIII)

This afternoon,I received your message...

And the contents was....... I totally dislike it!!!

I'm so sorry about it...

Sometimes, I really hope you dont send me a message even once!!

Although, everyday I will receive your message... Hehe... :P

Cause when you sent me those messages,I really damn hate it...

You will make me more hate you instead that I xxxx you...

Please don't do that again...

If you wanna send me those messages,I rather than you don't text me at all! K??

My mood text with you was totally gone because of you!!

Do you knew it???

That's why I don't feel like wanna reply you anymore...

It seems like wasting my time to reply you...

Better used my time to have a nap... :P

And I also don't know what should I reply you...

Said thanks or what???

Or what you hope I reply you actually???

Sometimes,I totally fed up on what you done before...

I really don't know what you're thinking and what is your next step gonna do...

I just feel like you and me wasn't like last time anymore...

Last time you'll tell me what problem you're facing or any personal problems...

But now you seems like forget me already...

Maybe is my problem or your problem??

Or we also having the same problems at the same time??

I also not sure about it...

Maybe we should just left our problems aside and let the time flies...

I'm too tired to think about that anymore...

Maybe you think we more suitable to become good friends...

Okie!!!

If like that I will accept it if you really want...

Just don't cheat yourself...

Hahaha...(crazy already)

Still left 2 days before my maths paper2 and I still blogging!!

Yea...blogging can help me to reduce stress...maybe...

A whole day I only just done few questions...Haiz...

I wasted my time on tv,sleep and also facebook...LOL...

WTH!!! Exam time I dont study and just doing something useless...

Honestly, stpm was my worst exam compared to others because I admit that I really not well prepared and I still can relax most of the times...

I really hope someone can scold me so that I can change my attitude...

But,its too late now and I have to accept the reality of the life...

Anyway,I have to think at a positive way because just left 2 days only!!!

Hahahaha...

Cant wait la~~~

Waiting to have my freedOm and also work at Genting...

My happy mood to Genting is getting nearer and nearer...

To-morrow and to-morrow and to-morrow.................................

I Want It That Way-Backstreet Boys

Although is an old song but currently addicted to this song...^^

Yeah-eh-heah
You are my fire The one desire
Believe when I say I want it that way
But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart When you say
That I want it that way
*Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say I want it that way
Am I your fire
Your one desire desire it's too late
But I want it that way
Now I can see that we've fallen apart
From the way that it used to be Yeah
No matter the distance I want you to know
That deep down inside of me
You are my fire The one desire
You are (You are You are You are)
Don't wanna hear you say
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way
*Tell me why
(Never wanna hear you say it)
Cause I want it that way

*repeat

Handphone~~~

My phone again went to see doctor...This time was second time le...
Haiz...Just bought it for 8 months only and....................
Yesterday my phone suddenly appeared a bright line and I dont know where the hell it comes from...When I saw that stupid line,I really wanna throw my phone away cause it really make me angry...@#$%!^&*^$#@*)*&^#@

Hymph...Dont know is it that I said wanna change a new phone and my current phone small gas??

Now want me used back the old old phone and dont know need wait till when can get back my phone...Hope can get it before I go Genting work la...If not,I need bring that phone go to work...Lol...Sad~~~~
Faster come back la......

Me!!!(ParT VIII)

Today was my maths paper 1 and its totally make me crazy already...

Haiz...I'm confident that 100% I'm gonna fail in maths!!!

Urrghh!!!

I really hate myself for being so lazy in this year...

Actually ,the paper is not quite hard...But,is just I didn't do more exercise only...

Sincerely felt sorry to Mr.Lim because he really a good teacher that have taught me before...

He really good in teaching skill and very nice to all of us...

p/s: Sir,this time I'm gonna make you disappointed again...cause I do really tried my best to do but again I forgot the steps...Again make me feel wanna cry and I really angry myself for the laziness... T.T

And I really felt sorry to my parents too because they really hope I can enter local uni but now I make them disappointed towards me...Although I can't enter local uni but I will try my best to find a good job and wont make u all upset again...

I'm promise to you all!!!

Okieeee??? ^^

失去你的那一刻我哭了...

我选择放弃你，因为我深爱;

在感情上，我输了

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的，

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃，

人生中有许多种爱。

但别让爱成为一种 伤害。

有些缘分是注定要失去的，

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的。

爱一个人不一定要拥有，

但拥有一个人一定要好好的去爱她！

男人哭了，因为他真的爱了！女人哭了，因为她放弃了。

如果真诚是一种伤害，我选择沉默。

如果沉默是一种伤害，我选择离开！

如果 失去是痛苦，你怕不怕付出;如果迷乱是痛苦，

你会不会选择结束;如果追求是痛苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟;如果分离是痛苦，

我该向谁倾诉！

好多事情都是后来 才看清楚，

好多事情都是当时糊里糊涂但清醒时，

一切都已经太晚，一切都成为往事！

有一珍爱明明是深爱，却说不出来。

有一种爱明明想放弃，却无法放弃。

有一种爱明知是煎熬，却有舍不得。

有一种爱明知没有结果，心却收不回来！

决定放 弃你的那一刻我哭了。

我的眼泪证明了我的心。

如果轻易就能放弃一个人，那你是真的爱她吗？

时间是情感受伤最好的治愈者！

什么是勇气？是哭着要你爱我？

还是 让自己哭着离开？

为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前的人。

在未可预知的重逢里，我们以为会重逢，

总会有缘再会，总以为有机会说对不起，

从没想过每一次的挥手都 可能是决别！

因为爱你，所以离开你！

有些感情如此直接和残酷！

有时候伤心得离开，要比哭着知道真相要好！

感情被懂得 是一种幸福;等待着被懂得是一种孤独！

不是因为寂寞才想你，而是因为想你才寂寞！

拥有一定要珍惜，一旦失去才知道后悔莫及！

世界上有太多的 如果，太多的当时，太多的我会，

当拥有的时候为什么不珍惜呢？

有百分之一的希望！我们就要付出百分之一百零一 的努力去争取！

即使没有成功，但以后想起来，也不会觉得后悔！

因为我曾经争取过！努力过！

就算得不到结果，也不怪你，

只可怪我自己，明知道 没可能，却舍不得！

明知是个错，却要等待！

也许这就是我们的错吧！

有这么一句话，“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”！

只是曾经的经历...^^

有人说爱得越深，伤得越深；的确如此，爱一但投入了，就将会不能自拨，不论感情多么的深，多么的稳固，到最后也会有人受伤。

曾经的爱情，一但结束了，再美丽也只是回忆；曾经的付出，一但结束了，再努力也只是白费；曾经的快乐，一但结束了，再伤心也只是痛苦；曾经的牵手，一但结束了，再挽留也只是过去；曾经的梦想，一但结束了，再漂亮也只是个梦；曾经的曾经，一但结束了，再回忆也只是曾经。

结束了就是结束了，它就是该结束了；如果勉强的去挽留，伤得就只有自己，痛的也只会是自己，又何必呢？我们要学会，拿得起就要放得下；该放手时就要放手！

谢谢你让我伤心...♥

从来没有这么伤心过，也许早在那一天，我的心就已经死去。我想我应该感谢你，让我学会心冷和心痛。谢谢你让我伤过心，让我刻骨铭心，让我学会珍惜，学会怎样去爱，学会怎样忍受，学会怎样沉默地应对一切，历练了我的心。我知道有一种爱叫做放弃，所以，将你放在心底，离开你，默默看着你，默默祝福你。

我知道我在你的眼里，我没有一丝地位，一直一直站在被你遗忘的位置，卑微得像尘埃，始终是我一个人的风景。一直以为我没有错，后来才明白，原来我很任性，任性得舍不得把你从我的记忆里剔除，任性得折磨自己，落花有意随流水，流水无心恋落花，本来应该明白的，但是却始终不愿意相信。以为闭上眼睛我就能寻找到天堂，没想到看到的是一片黑暗，潸然泪下，睫毛挂着的泪滴让我知道，当我不能拥有的时候，唯一能做的，便是忘记。我以为我能做到，一直努力地笑着，认真地笑着，没想到，有时候，竟然连笑都是假的。

你会哭吗？到底，谁才会在你的心内住下呢？花开花谢，一个又一个的轮回，那些等待的日子，是我的执迷不悟，才让自己那么难过。可是谁又知道，我面对失去，是有多么的不舍，面对尘埃落定，乱世繁华，我竟然也会淡定如水，不慌不乱。但是面对你，我一度以为波澜不惊的我的心，竟然也会起伏不定，心痛不已。我不自量力地想要走进你的内心，终究还是被撞得头破血流，满身伤痕累累，我狼狈逃窜，繁华一场，梦一场，空一场。你在我守望不到的边缘，我望着那些泛白的记忆，始终不愿意去相信。在那些黑漆漆的夜里，我躲在角落里哭泣了多少次，每一次的痛彻心扉，都让我无法承受，满脸的泪水，逃脱不了的害怕，是有多么可怜。在你眼里，是有多么低微。

我多么希望，从来没有遇见你，在我的世界，永远没有你的影子，让我永远地一个人，走过多少陌生的风景，让我一直带着仿徨，独自老去，没有谁，可以在我的心里住下。可是你的出现，一切都改变了，变得更加沉默，甚至颓废，学会伤害自己。身体上的疼痛，远远比不过心里的伤。以前看别人离别的故事，只觉得和自己无关，从来也不会为此难过。可是当你经过以后，当你离开以后，看着那些重蹈覆辙的故事，眼泪竟然不自觉地在脸上静静流着。那些情节，多么像我们，谁都知道，爱过后会心碎，可是却都像飞蛾扑火般执迷不悟，一次又一次奋不顾身。而我仅仅这一次，便遍体鳞伤，和执迷不悟，很多事在不经意间就过去了，而残留在掌心的温度，也快要渐渐冰凉下去了。那又有什么呢？手心里的幸福，就像流水，怎能抓住。

我承认，我已经不爱你，只是我，还没有走出那个结，我打了一个死结，死死地将自己困住，不让自己走出来，所以每次想起你的时候，心依然那么痛。于是我将自己变得忙碌，让自己在现实的残酷中麻痹，我不是要谁心疼，只是我认为这样，或许能够让自己内心的疼痛减少一点，哪怕只是一点点。也许在每个人心中，都有一个人是无法忘记的，那个人，无关好看与否，无关他的过去，未来，却让人死心塌地思念着。你离去后，一直躲避着你，一直不敢去打听你的消息，有时候无意中从别人口中得知你的消息，心里还是会一惊，原来我还没有彻底走出你的世界。

我以为在文字里面能够有一个让我依赖的空间，于是开始写一段段空白的文字，没想到还是不能填补内心的缺口。我知道你不会回来，我知道我在等待一封没有地址的信，可是那些已经苍老了的记忆啊，还是深深地印在脑海里，欲休不能。

我还有一生，可以去将你忘记。以后，要学会承受孤单，以后，要学会坚强，对于这段记忆，我知道是触碰不得的，所以只能，深深的埋在心里，虽然在深夜，还是能感受到那悲伤的气息情不能自已。

谢谢你伤过我的心，以后的我，将是冰冷的。

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Me!!!(Part VII) MemOriEs~~~

刚才突然看到某个朋友的留言就想回以前在中学的时候...

那时的我们真的无忧无虑的过着我们的开心的生活...

尤其是跟我那班死党在一起就是最开心的日子...

所以每个人都说读书的时候是最爽的,因为没什么烦恼...除了读书的烦恼啦...哈哈哈...

虽然我死党不是很多,但是起码个个都对我很好啊...那我已经很开心了...

那些回忆真的真的有很多...都不懂要从哪里讲起...

不过心知就够啦...

死党们!!!

希望你们知道我在说你们啦...

尤其是你们有跟我分享大家的秘密啦...哈哈哈...

我的快乐跟伤心都有跟你们分享...那代表我真的当你们是我的好朋友!!!

希望你们也是吧...

时间过得真快啊...

就这样过了几年了...

原来这几年我一直都不段的成长...

原来我现在比以前成熟多了...

想回以前我做那些无聊的东西,我会微笑的说自己真傻...

呵呵呵...

原来每发生一件事都会让我们得到经验...

那些经验才让我们成长...

虽然大家都会分开,但起码那些回忆都会留在我们的脑海里啊...

希望你们都会记得我啦...^^

p/s : Hey guys!! We are best friends forever!! Muacks...Haha...^^